Hey guys. I just wanted to let you guys know that I am not dead. And Im sorry if I made you guys worry, I should have made this post a long time ago.
I am also sorry to say that, at this point, I just dont really want to be on deviantart. Maybe I will sometime in the future. But theres some stuff about the way the site runs I'm not so cool with, and about the atmosphere it creates that I just don't really want all that much to be a part of any more. Its absolutely nothing to do with you guys, you guys were amazing and are amazing.
I just dont feel that deviantArt is the place for me any more, or at least, not right now. I want you guys to know that you did make my experience here fun, and amazing. And you helped me grow in a lot of ways. And I am grateful, thank you.
I am currently active on tumblr
, and thats about it right now.
For updates with my life.
Ehh...hard to describe. Cuz there hasn't been much going on by way of EVENTS in my life. Mostly me, left to my own devices, being a friggin idiot.
After I graduated my life kind of...ppppppppbbbbthhhhhht. Which was part of the reason I initially left. Im at sort of a stand still right now. Nothing really HAPPENED, like as an actual event but me mentally. One of my best friends that Ive known for 10 years moved to Florida, while one of my other closest friends went to school. I got pretty sad, and lonely. I did another semester at my old college, Ive yet to work up the balls to move forward and transfer. Ive got some legit things to take care of right now. And I'm not doing a very good job at getting them done. I'm not proud of myself. Even to the point where I made people wait horrendous amounts of time for things that I owed them, and that is the worst thing that came of this. I hurt people with my stupidity and fear. And it was my fault. I was very, very
wrong. And to those people I am so sorry because that is the worst thing Ive ever done to somebody and I hate knowing that I did it, but I did. I let myself just spiral like an idiot and it just got worse and worse even though I had people warning me and willing to help me. I'm trying now to pick myself up and right some of this bullshit that I caused. I'm tired of standing still and not telling people anything, cuz Im starting to realize that Ive been stagnant for like a year now, and that Im wasting a lot of time. I dont want this to be me or my life. Im tired of running from my own life, cuz theres nowhere to go where I'm running.
Again, I am so sorry for taking so long to post this.